Silly Survey

If someo​ne liked​ you right​ now, would​ you want them to tell you?
Sure, why not? It's always nice to hear, even though nothing would ever come of it.

What'​s somet​hing you eat or drink​ peopl​e would​ think​ is nasty​?
Dry cereal.

How many peopl​e have you reall​y loved​?​
Three.

Do you enjoy​ late night​ phone​ conve​rsati​ons?
Sometimes.

What’​s your hair look like today​?
Crap....frizzy, haven't showered yet, yes, I'm a scumbag.

Is there​ someo​ne you'​d like to fix thing​s with?
Who knows......sometimes, sometimes not.

How'​s your heart​ latel​y?​
Very happy.

What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​
Wrapping more presents, cooking.

Do you think​ you can last in a relat​ionsh​ip for three​ month​s?​
Well, I hope so, Adam and I have been together for 9 years now.....

Could​ you go out in publi​c looki​ng like you do now?
Oh man no. I'm still wearing clothes from yesterday and I haven't showered......ew.

Have you ever made someo​ne so mad that they broke​ somet​hing?
You bet.

What kind of mood are you in?
Tired, happy, excited, creative, thoughtful, you know, the usual.

Plans​ for tomor​row?
​What's tomorrow again? oh yeah, Saturday....probably something Christmas-ey.

Where​ did you get the shirt​ you'​re weari​ng?​
The thrift store on base.

What would​ you do if you won the lotte​ry?​
Pay off all my family's debts, buy a house, put the rest under my mattress.

Do you regre​t anyth​ing from your past?​
Nope.

Do you pay any bills​?​
No, I just take care of the chitlins.

Have you ever made a mista​ke?​
Every day!

Are you shy?
Not in the least bit.

In the past week have you smile​d?
Yup!

Have you told anybo​dy you loved​ them today​?
Sure have!

Do you think​ too much or too littl​e?​
I think WAAAAAAYYYYYY too much.

Do you put shamp​oo in your left or right​ hand?​
Left.

When you take a drink​ of somet​hing,​ do you hold your pinky​ up?
No.

What'​s the most domin​ant color​ in your room?​
Military white.

How many times​ do you knock​ on a door?​
Five.

Does anyon​e compl​etely​ under​stand​ you?
I doubt it, I don't even understand myself.

Do you write​ how you speak​?
​Yes.

Do you under​stand​ footb​all?
​Yes, and I love it.

What’​s the great​est thing​ that happe​ned to you today​?
​Stuff working out like I wanted it to.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Yes, unless it's a certain time of the month.

Last time you wore the oppos​ite sex'​s cloth​ing?
​A couple days ago.

If you could​ move somew​here else,​ would​ you?
To NC - ASAP!!!!

Do you ever think​ "​what if" about​ anyth​ing?
Yes, a lot.

Are you happy​ with the way thing​s are going​?​
Yes!

In the past week have you cried​?
A few times, see above crying question.

Do you have a reaso​n to smile​ right​ now?
Yes, my babies, sewing, almost being done with presents, cooking.

Has anyon​e said they love you in the last week?​
Oh yes.

Do you think​ you would​ be a good paren​t?
I try my best!

Do you usual​ly have weird​ dream​s?​
All the time.

Do you like your bed?
Eh, not really, Anthony's is way comfier.

Is there​ anybo​dy you wish you could​ be with right​ now?
Myself? Does that count??!!

Did you get a full 8 hours​ of sleep​ last night​?​
Ha! That's funny.......no.

Why did you kiss the perso​n you last kisse​d?​
Anthony: just woke up and looked really cute

What do you usual​ly do right​ when you wake up?
Go back to sleep, lol!

Do you find the oppos​ite sex confu​sing?​
Only certain members............

Tatto​os?
​Not for me.

How long does it take for you to take a showe​r?
12 minutes.

What'​s the last thing​ you ate?
Popcorn cereal M&M snack mix. Very healthy.......

What time did your alarm​ clock​ get you up today​?
Alarm?? Ha, I've been up since 2 am.

How did you feel when you woke up today​?
Pissed that no one came to wake me up from Anthony's bed.

Is someo​ne on your mind right​ now?
Not really.

Do you curse​ a lot?
Oh hell yeah!

Are you too forgi​ving?
Not really.

Forgiveness

"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven." (Luke 6:37)

How do you begin to forgive someone who has hurt you? Do you begin sifting through your pain to find the one grain of rationale that could excuse the other person's behavior?The truth is that forgiveness has nothing to do with who is right or wrong. Forgiveness is a free agent. It is not attached to reason or agreement or even understanding. It is, however, attached to wholeness and to your healing and liberation.Unforgiveness is a prison. It slams the door on new beginnings and entrenches you in your present pain. It chains the heart and stops it from beating. It suffocates joy and paralyzes your ability to move on. Unforgiveness is the cancer of the soul. It slowly eats away the marrow of your existence and impairs your judgement, your personality, and your ability to love again. The desire to want the other person who hurt us to also be hurting can be overwhelming. We become jealous of their joy, wanting them to feel the torture we think they deserve. How can she act as though nothing ever happened? we ask ourselves. It's not fair? Where is God in all this? Is there no justice?Yes, there is justice. But justice comes only after we have released our offender into the hands of the One who is solely in the position to judge. Only God knows both sides of the story. Only He knows the deficiencies of both parties. The fears, the past wounds, the generational conditioning, the weaknesses, the insufficiencies of character and integrity. He knows the things that we in the glow of the love failed to notice. The things that should have warned us to guard our hearts.Only God knows the hidden motives and the unspoken regrets of the one who hurt you. The assumptions we make usually do more damage than the truth. Yes, our imaginations can be unmerciful. Trust me, it's never what you think. Your guesses will always be more cruel than the reality of what really transpired, adding unnecessary injury to insult.You need to let it go. You need to forgive. Not for his sake-for yours. It's time to redirect your focus and move on. And you won't be able to do that if you continue to nurse and rehearse your anger, the many wrongs done against you, all the reasons why.If you can't forgive for your own sake, forgive for God's sake. He needs your hands open in order to bless you. Cooperate. No one who wronged you that much deserves so much of your attention. Your fixation is standing in the gap between that person and God, shielding him from conviction. Move out of the way. Free him to receive the proper correction from God.

Still working on this....more to come....

It's really early for me...or is it late?

It's 5:45 a.m. I am not usually up right now. This is wierd but in my defense, I've been awake since three....ugh. I'm sure I COULD have gone back to bed, but I didn't really want to. I fell asleep with Anthony again, his bed is just way too darn comfy! Then when I woke up, I wanted to do all this stuff, sew, crafts, cook, you know, anything except housework that really NEEDS to be done, lol!

Today they are having "Cruising Keesler", a car and motorcycle show on base, and I'm taking the kids to it. It should be fun. I took them to Lynn Meadows last night to see Bob the Builder (in Ayden's words, "Fun seeing Bob the Builder!") and play for a little bit. They had a lot of fun. They haven't been in a while, cause I normally work on Fridays, and Adam is just too tired after working all day to take them (I don't blame him). But this Friday I was actually off work. I've been out of work since Tuesday because I hurt the tendon in my left arm. I left work early Tues. night to go to the ER because it hurt so bad. They gave me prednisone, aleve, and vicodin. So, thanks to my friend vicodin, I've gotten lots of sleep the past few days, so I'm not worried about being up so early. At least, I'm not worried right now....just give me a few hours, lol.

It's the time of year that I absolutely love, fall! I love all the smells, all the leaves blowing, the cold, crisp air, Halloween, and the start of Christmas season. I had a lot of fun painting a jack o lantern flower pot (pictures to come) a couple of nights ago. It was one of those things where you're afraid what's in your head will not be the final outcome. But it actually turned out better than I imagined! I really like it. It was cheap, too, the pot was $3, the paint was $3, and the finishing spray was $5. And I still have lots of leftover paint and spray.

Now I'm trying to think of some fun crafty things to do with the kids. I bought a really cute plastic picnic table at the thrift store on base, and they love to sit out there and color and paint, but I think this weekend I want to do a big craft thing with them. I just don't know what. I have these masks that go over your eyes that you can glue and paint and decorate, and some glitter and stuff, so maybe I'll do that.

I also found a really good recipe for homemade oreos - here is the link:">http://smittenkitchen.com/2007/05/my-kingdom-for-a-glass-of-milk/
And I mean, it is GOOD. The first batch I made I cooked for nine minutes, and although oreos ARE crunchy, these came out a little TOO crunchy. So the next batch I cooked for eight minutes....and they were HEAVENLY! They tasted like a mix between regular oreos and cakesters. Man they were good.....they didn't last too long, either.

I love fall because I get so much more inspired to bake. Baking is definitely a passion for me. If I can bake something really good, that will just make my day. I would love to open up a little bake shop one day. Who knows, though....I always change what I want to do on a daily basis.

Now it just needs to get light out so I can take pictures of my flowerpot...................

Give Us This Day Our Daily Bread.....

Yay! I found a bread pan that I love today! I've been wanting one for a while now. It was $15, but it was WELL worth it. I made the YUMmiest bread today! I would have a picture, but the camera batteries are dead and I can't find the charger.Here's the link to the recipe from AllRecipes: http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Best-Bread-Machine-Bread/Detail.aspx?prop31=1
I used regular all purpose flour in it, mixed it on the dough cycle in my bread machine, then punched it down and let it rise for about 1-1 1/2 hours and baked at 350 deg. for 20-25 minutes. Yummalicious.

Before I found my bread pan I stopped at a yard sale down the street from us. I got a ton of really neat stuff:

- a big Micro Machines camper that folds out into a "city"
- 2 or 3 bags of "men"; Spiderman, Batman, various soldiers, etc.
- a bunch of trim, ribbon and bias tape
- a bunch of elastic
- a bag of colored leather so I can try out making leather shoes
- paint markers
- Fisher Price binoculars
- a big bag of play food and utensils
- a huge bag of Crayola markers, and a binder type Crayola thing full of more markers
- a miniature police motorcycle (which Anthony LOVES, he said, Mom, I LOVE this motorcycle! I'm going to be so careful with this one, I won't let it get broken ever! I give it 2 days....)

And my grand total was...dunh duh duh duh.....$5! Yup, that's it. Purty sweet! The Micro Machines camper even had a little Micro Machine hidden inside the garage that we discovered later. Anthony was really excited about that.


Other than that, today was pretty uneventful. I fell asleep with Anthony in his bed again. It's so wrong when your 4 year old's bed is comfier than yours! I mean seriously, his bed is like sleeping on air. I love it. So does Adam. He joked about buying 2 of them and putting them side by side in our bedroom. I actually considered it for a minute......

Well, off to bed, it's calling my name. That is , after I update myself on Hurricane Ike...ugh.

Gustav poo-stav

I cannot believe it is already September! Where the heck did summer go??? Anthony is back in preschool, it's starting (well, as much as it can), to get colder here, and I am really wishing we lived up north right now. Fall is my absolute favorite season. It's so pretty up in New York, when all the leaves change, and you can smell apples everywhere, it's just so.....romantic? Maybe? I don't know, but whatever it is, I miss it!

The kids and I got back on Tuesday from our hurricane Gustav journey. We ended up stopping Saturday night in Montgomery, then heading on to Columbus, GA to Fort Benning the next day. It was interesting....the kids drove me CRAZY the whole time. I'm sure it was partly because I was so distracted by watching the weather channel constantly while they wanted me to play with them. And who can blame them? They got to stay in fun hotel rooms for a few days. The room in Gavin Hall on Fort Benning was freakin awesome! It had just been renovated, I believe, and it was so nice. They had a little kitchen area, with a microwave, full size fridge and freezer, sink, an a little 2 burner stove. Then there was a living room area right next to that, and in the other room were 2 queen beds and the bathroom. I thought, "Yay! 2 beds! I'll have one all to myself!" HA! I should have known better. Both kids were curled up next to me by the next morning. I didn't mind, though, cause they're very snuggly when they're sleeping :)

I'll post more tomorrow.